再见了，古晋。
我回来了，诗巫。

今天，是我21岁的生日。人人都说，21岁的生日应该要特别。可是我的21岁生日也不过如此。虽然有着朋友们的祝福和陪伴，我仍然觉得空虚。为什么呢？因为我一点也不觉得我的生日是个生日。我的生日总是落在考试的时候。忙着应付考试令我忘了我的生日。如果不是朋友祝福的信息，也许我都不知道今天是我的生日。就连今天我的生日也是在k书中度过的，因为明天才是我最后一科。悲哀啊。刚才和朋友一起庆祝，但是庆祝的是他们考完试了（他们即将毕业了）。说难听点，我的生日也只是刚好罢了（当然我知道他们没有这个意识，我也非常替他们感到开心，只是人家我很羡慕他们啦 T.T）。不过我想最重要的原因还是那个吧。我不知等了几个月，多么的盼望今天就只有一个原因。但是很不幸的，我所盼望的并没有发生。唉~ 也许这就是命中注定吧。最后，我就在这里感谢所有祝福我的朋友吧！也希望我的考试会顺利啊！

在这里，我要把这首温岚的‘祝我生日快乐’献给我自己（这首歌对我来说是有非常重要的意义，是我这一辈子都不会忘记的）。

明天开始考试了。头痛啊！好没有信心啊！还是考两科啊明天！希望不会死啦~ 加油吧！

这是最后了，你要加油啊！ 加油！ 加油！ 加油！

今天和朋友去看了“那些年，我们一起追的女孩”这部电影。在它还没出之前我就已经很想看了。看完了，觉得它真的是一部很好看的电影，非常值得去看的。它讲述的是一群 好友同时爱上了一个女孩，从他们的高中生涯直到大学毕业，工作的故事。虽然电影里面有很多的情节是我没经历过的，但是它还是带给了我许多的欢笑和感动。看了 会觉得，为何我生长的环境和他们差这么多。电影里的情节我就不在这里透露了，你们还 是自己去看吧。

在电影的最后一幕，男主角说了一句话：“当你真的非常喜欢一个人的时候，你是会真心的祝福她幸福的。”（大概是这样的意思啦，我也不是很记得了） 我在想，我，做得到吗？我镇的不知道我是否能够真心的祝福你和另外一个人在一起。记得他们还在宣传这部电影的时候，他们打着这样的广告：“每个人的生命里，都 曾经有过一个沈佳仪或柯景腾。” 我想了想，我想我心目中的沈佳仪非你莫属。而你呢？我是不是你心目中的柯景腾呢？

今天原本心情是蛮低落的。其实从昨晚就开始相当emo了。还是一样的原因。昨晚整夜和今天整天都在听周杰伦超级emo的新歌“你好吗”。吃了晚餐，原本想回家搞emo，但是姨姨打电话来，叫我去她家因为是表妹和姨丈的生日。原本想拒绝的，但是想想很久没看到这些亲戚了，是时候去和他们打招呼了。于是，我就去了。去到了那边，像个木头人一样，站着也不是，坐着也不是，总觉得不自在。吃了一片蛋糕后，就被叫去电视前坐。然后又开始了一如既往的问答。读什么啊，读第几年了啊，还有多久啊，有去外国读吗，以后去哪里做工；这些都是每次见面时必问的。*叹气* 我也习惯了，早就认命了。接着就盯着电视，看着奇怪的节目，非常的不自在。就这样过了大概一个钟后，我就从客人升级到保姆了。我那可爱的侄子就因为我喂他吃葡萄后，就开始粘我了。所以，我就做起了保姆。不过，我是不介意当保姆的因为我本身就很喜爱小孩子（只要他们不吵闹的话）。就这样陪我那侄子玩了大概一个钟头，我才离开。原本失落的我，也因为我那侄子令我开怀了起来。所以，还真没后悔去了一趟。现在，我又要开始搞emo了啦。嘻嘻！

爱情到底是祸，还是福呢？

我想这答案在于两人是否相爱着吧。 如果两人是相爱的，那爱情肯定就是幸福的。 但是，如果两人并不是相爱的，我想爱情对双方都是折磨的吧。

一些爱情能够维持几年到几十年 ；而也有一些爱情说变就变。

我曾经无知的白白放弃了一段爱情；而如今的我却因为它带着不知多久才能放下的悔过。

曾经的爱情也许很幸福，甜蜜；但同样的它也给我留下了一段刻骨铭心的回忆。

这回忆，不知何年何月才会慢慢逝去呢。。。

或许，会逝去吗？

或许，我舍得吗？

我不知道。。。 应当逝去的回忆反而渐渐更加的清晰，令我哭笑不得。

甜蜜幸福的回忆，往往是最伤人的。。。

Happy 80th birthday my dear grandma ;)

May God continue to bless you abundantly, Amen.

我想我很倔强，我认定的事怎么都不会改变。

­我想我很固执，明明知道是错了却还要坚持。­

我想我很偏激，我的想法有时候特别的极端。­

我想我很自私，总是只向自己开心的方向去。­

我想我很平凡，平凡的让人不容易给予爱护。

日子过得好难过，好颓废。总觉得生活失去了意义。 不知道要怎么办。。。 每晚不想入睡，每早不想清醒。。。 我的人生是什么呢？ 有谁能告诉我？ =(

Tik tok~ tik tok~ Not much time left and I duno wat to do yet. =(

Ah... These 2 days are super tiring for me. Been a tour guide and driver for 2 days is so freaking tired. But for the sake of my brother, it doesn't matter. Had a great time myself and met great people. Hope they had a wonderful trip and the main reason of the trip turns out to be great. Wish you all have a great time in Sibu.

And it's Jenny's birthday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNY! Finally you are in the 20's. Congratulations! =D Thank you for the party tonight and hope you had a great night today. =)

今天真的是值得感恩的一天。今天成绩出榜了，昨天睡觉前紧张害怕到不行。9点准时去查。心情超级紧张的。看到成绩时，开心的不得了。哈哈哈哈！真没想到我既然会拿到 1HD 1D 2C。 真的是开心到不行啊！真的是感谢主的恩典。我自己知道我其实没有很用功读书，真的非常感谢主的恩典。终于没有fail了阿。每次都有至少一科fail，让我超怕的。这次是我最后一次的机会了。如果我又fail的话，准备打包回家了。感谢主救了我一命。下个sem要保持下去，加油！

今天回到了古晋。在诗巫的一个星期好像才两三天一样。过的好不爽。不过能够脱离诗巫那热死人不偿命的滋味，不偿也是一件好事。哈哈！

今天的心情表：

爱睡 > 开心 > 不爽 > 不舍的 > 极度伤心 > 想念

又有一对令人羡慕的艺人结婚了。看了好感动，也好心痛。愿主赐福于他们。希望他们幸福到老。

想看他们的结婚影片，请到以下地址浏览：
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150331100803776&oid=196882183670586&comments

It's the second Sunday of May, so it's Mothers' Day today! Happy Mothers' Day to all the awesome mums in the world! A *thumb up* for all of you for all your hard work and sufferings. All of you are awesome!

这是一部关于一对情侣从相识到在一起到结婚的影片。个人觉得很甜蜜，很感动。

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

This afternoon, earthquake of magnitude 8.9 strikes near the coastal area of Japan, causing a tsunami hitting the east coast of Japan. Not only so, they suspect the tsunami will hit Taiwan, Papua New Guinea, Philippines, Indonesia and Sabah (Malaysia).

Hopefully the casualties will not be as serious as New Zealand. Let's pray for all of the victims.

OMG! It's 阎奕格！！！ I can't believe it! She's one of my favorite singer from 超级星光大道! Miss her lots after 星光传奇赛! A Jason Chen and Janice Yan collaboration! Daebak!

This is a touching story regarding parents. Do cherish them before ir's too late. Cheers!

This is a cover of the song "I See The Light" from the Disney movie Tangled which I like a lot. One of the greatest Disney movie for me. Greatest OST too. Enjoy!

I just finished watching this superb korean drama, Secret Garden. Omo, this drama is really daebak! I really don't want to believe that this drama had ended. I really enjoy this drama. This is the first drama I watched that gave me a feeling that I don't want it to end. But sadly, every drama will reach their ending eventually. At least, the drama ends beautifully. As usual, a good ending, but still I enjoy it till the last bit.

I like all the casts of this drama. They really did well in this drama, giving all of us great enjoyment. No wonder this drama is such a big hit. How I wish there will be another collaboration of all of them together again. Perhaps Secret Garden 2? Haha. I wish there will be but sadly it won't. Because the drama had ended beautifully.

Aww, both of them truly are the best couple. I really enjoy both of them a lot a lot, to the extend that I wish both of them are couple in real. But sadly, Hyun Bin is currently in relationship with Song Hye Kyo. If they are couple in real, that will be daebak! I believe no one will oppose their relationship. Oops, sorry. I shouldn't say that. I don't mean Hyun Bin and Song Hye Kyo don't make a good couple. Sorry~

There are many famous scene in this drama that touches the audience's heart. Among them, there is one scene that makes me curl and shout in awe when I watched. That scene is where Kim Ju Won was doing sit up while giving deep emotion eye contact with Gil Ra Im. Then he said, "Gi Ra Im ssi, since when you started to become so pretty? Last year?" Omo, that sentence kills me! Hahaha.

If you haven't watched this drama yet, you have to go and get yourself this superb drama. You will definitely enjoy it very much like I do. Sigh, my heart sank when i thought that Secret Garden has ended now. But still I know that Secret Garden will stay in our heart for a long time. SECRET GARDEN FEVER JJANG!!!!

p/s: Miho ya, let's break up. I have fallen in love with Gil Ra Im ssi. I'm sorry. =P

It's 14th of Feb again, which is just another lonely normal day to me. Sigh. Single people is like this one la, what to do. Now, for the singles out there, cheers to us who are still free like birds. But hopefully someday we could find our love which we willingly to be bound by her. Here's 2 videos for u guys out there. Cheers!





HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to all the couples out there. Just you all wait, soon I will join too =P

This is a duet by TaeYeon (Leader of SNSD I admire =D) and Kim Bum Soo "Different".



This is a video I found on facebook, which is really touching.

超级星光大道 第7届冠军。。。。。。。。。。。 李 佳 薇 ！！！





She's really amazing. I would say she's the best among all the contestants throughout all 7 seasons, if not one of the top 5. I really like all her performances. The first time I heard her, her voice, power and talent captured me. And now, she's the champion of season 7. Congratulations! You have really done well! I am so proud of her! The second song she sang during the final, "Listen" by Beyonce, undeniably AWESOME! I would say it's on pare with Beyonce's version and Charice Pempenco's version. I believe this song will push her to the another side of the world just like 林育群. She had renewed many records of this competition. The first Malaysian Champion and full marks 4 times in a row. She's the champion without a doubt. But somehow, I'm a bit worried because being the champion this season, she will be signed under 华纳, a company which I do not trust, especially the CEO. To me, he sucks. Hopefully she will get the support she deserved in that company. I will be waiting for your album. 李佳薇最棒！！！

Was reading through this moments ago. Do you guys still remember this? This is our high school class "magazine" (Actually it's just a paper book =P). Ah, it reminds me of the good old times during our high school 2006-2007. The two years was whole lots of fun! Damn, I miss those times badly. 39 students, 9 teachers, 1 class. In our class, we had the elites group, noisy group, quiet girls group and the dirty jokes group. It sure brings back memories. High school may not be as eventful as university, but high school do leave a deep memory in our hearts. Be it the studies (=O do you?), the teachers, the prefects (if you always had a disciplinary problems =D), the principal (LOL), the friendship or the in love relationship.

Well, there were quite a number of love cases in our class that time. The famous love confession through essay during class exam, the official dating of 2 guys and 1 girl (It's not 3P, 1 guy at a time, 2006 with XXX, 2007 with XXX. Ahem ahem =P), the break up during SPM, the chocolate love that never wins her heart and finally, the "fishy relationship" (Well, they are officially a super lovey-dovey couple now).

There were so many happenings in those 2 years that I could hardly forget. I hope the pre-decided class reunion 25th January 2020 will be fulfilled. It's just nine more years from now. Hopefully all of us can make it. Cheers to us, 4S2 -5S2 SMK XXXXXXXXX 2006-2007.

Finally, I have waited this for so long! Grab the champion next week!

Hmmm, it's a whole new year now =O Time sure flies. At the beginning of the year, we always repent on our previous year's doings and make new year resolutions. Hmmm, wrong doings last year? I had TONS!!!! I just had so so so so much that I really need to repent. Damn! Sometimes i really hate myself. Why can't I do what as I say? Why can't I maintain good friendship with my friends? Why can't I? Why why why? Sigh, to me, 2010 considered to be a bad year to me. At least for the second half of the year, it really is a very bad year. Well, what done is done, though I really wish tat I could change the past but sadly I can't. So, my new resolution is NEVER REPEAT AGAIN! Short, simple but STRONG! I really wish this time i can make it, not just bluffing.

Today at church, heard a lot of sharings about God's plan. Makes me wonder is my current path God's plan for me? When i think about it, somehow i feel that this might not be the path God chose for me. Why? Because somehow I can't really focus on my studies. I have been slacking all these while. Is this a sign that God is showing me that this is not my path? Hmmm, even so, for now I don't have any other option but to carry on this path. I can't possibly drop my scholarship and go for other paths can I? No way. I don't have the time and money to do so. Maybe I can walk in God's path after this? Let's hope that this is the path God chose for me.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! 21st of January is coming soon. Results gonna be released on that day, so it's doomsday! Sigh, knowing I'm going to fail one for sure, let's hope i can get a pass for the other two =( Let's see how it goes.